I knew it. Got the call today that Ben refused his meds last night. He said they make him too tired (well, they do) and he wants to try something else. What? After three years staying out of the hospital? Rerun. Trouble is, there is no other medication that works for Ben. Clozaril is the only one that makes his progress even possible. I think school – the idea of success,maybe – is too much stress for him. I’ve been on this roller coaster before. There’s that fine balance, always: expectations low, but not too low. Challenge and promise for Ben, but not too much.